I was wrong! So wrong! Most of my anxiety was purely mental. My body has now proven my mind wrong. In the first few weeks of being here I noticed myself getting stronger and stronger. No more walking the Breezer up the hills. Then, over the next few rides, I became better at riding the bakfiets up the hills. Slowly, but I did it. Sometimes I didn't even realize I was riding up them in higher gears than I thought possible for myself. It was fun! I can do it! I'm also getting better each time I ride. Is it difficult at first? Yes! Does it suck most of the time? Yes! Do I have to walk the bike sometimes? Yes, but I'm not riding in a race, so who cares! When I make it, all of the previous struggles become worth it. Not only does it boost my confidence, it makes my mind feel better and my body stronger.
I had imagined that riding here would be fun, and it is!